My Fight For Remission Continues…

It has been 3 months since I arrived in California and began round 2 of magic medicine. I can’t believe I am still here or how quickly time has gone! I had originally booked a return flight for the middle of May, but as time crept up, reality kicked in… I still needed more medicine and this meant time. I was hit with the dilemma of how can I afford to stay in the USA for longer? Fundraising has slowed right down, the hotel was so expensive and I just didn’t have the funds for this as a long term option. The decision to return to the UK may have seemed more affordable, but for treatment this would be detrimental. Leaving California would mean pulling out my PICC line and therefore no more intravenous antibiotics. My infections have progressed to the difficult stages due to the length of time it took for an initial diagnosis and it seems I really don’t respond to the oral medication and therefore this wasn’t really proving an effective option for me. Bearing all this in mind its not surprising I had a full on week of worry and tears trying to work through options and scenarios in my head. Financial and geographical limitations were putting up barriers and the additional stress wasn’t great for my body.  I was then super lucky to find an offer of a room rental in someones house. It came just as I was loosing hope and I grabbed the opportunity with both hands. A kitchen I could finally cook in, this seemed like luxury after creating all sorts of interesting dishes in my hotel room, not easy with dietary restrictions and lack facilities! I also craved that home environment, a sense of normality in the midst of a situation which really didn’t seem all that normal! After all I have travelled over 5,000 miles by myself to get medical help, this didn’t shout normal and was definitley never on my 5 year plan!

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I was soon packed up and moved into my new temporary home… I seemed to have double the luggage I arrived with, medicine and IV supplies galore, kilo bags of epsom salts and not to forget the IV pole! I quickly adjusted into the new environment and know how ever hard it was to still be away from home I had to jeep focused, positive and motivated. No one ever said fighting for remission was going to be an easy one, but its definitely a fight I am willing to take a good shot at.

IV Meds in the hammock! Making the most of a 'better' day & the beautiful californian climate.

IV Meds in the hammock! Making the most of a ‘better’ day & the beautiful californian climate.

My medicine has been changed up on a regular basis since I have been here, research suggests that the infections really respond to this pulsing method long term. Un-like other illness’, Lyme is not text book and there really isn’t a ‘one fits all’ protocol. You can be infected with an array of infections from a tick and not only does this vary  from person to person, but also how the body and immune system cope and responds to these bacteria vary significantly. I often have people ask me ‘what medicine do you take, I have a friend with Lyme and she need to start medication?’. The thing is there is no simple answer, one must consult a Lyme literate doctor, have various lab tests done and be treated based on these results and also on a clinical level too based on current symptoms. My symptoms can change on an hourly basis, let alone a daily basis! I may wake with a crushing headache and pains in my feet, then an hour later I may feel really alert but shaking and by the end of the day I might be hugging the porcelain bowl! Its the most unpredicable situation to be in and it doesn’t make it easy to make any plans! I never really know if it will be a good hour or one where I hit foetal position and just rock! I can look so well from the outside but inside I often feel like I am breaking internally in so many different ways… like my body has been hijacked and there really is a monster inside me!  This for me is particularly frustrating, I can’t see or always understand what is going on inside MY body and yet I have to almost accept that ‘it is what it is’ and just deal with it. I am control freak and it makes me feel ridiculously out of control!

The main intravenous antibiotic medication I have been working with this past few months is Rocephin/Ceftriaxone, Azithromycin and Metronidazole/Flagyl. All of which focus on fighting the different persistent bacterial infections which I have. These are administered sometimes multiple times a day and have multiple side effects and interactions. Its often one medication for one problem and then another to reduce or eliminate the side effects!

The other IV medications I take are Phosphatidylcholine, Glutathione, Colloidal Silver and Myers. The latter is a  nutritional cocktail of high dose Vitamin C, various B Vitamins, Calcium, Magnesium etc. All of which have clear roles in detox,  supporting my immune system and helping me bite back against Lyme and the multiple co-infections.

I also take a daily concoction of probiotics, herbal tablets and tinctures which are a natural and vital part of my protocol. With all these pills, potions and drips it soon fills my day as you can imagine! In addition to medication I am also using food as another avenue of healing. I am currently gluten free, sugar free, dairy free and and following the Low Fodmap Diet. This eliminates high fodmap foods which are poorly absorbed into the small intestine and this helps reduce the abdominal pain, bloating, and bowel problems that have been caused by the infections and medicaitons . By eliminating these short-chain carbohydrates such as Lactose and Sucrose, it helps to eradicate this process of malabsorption and in addition to the other dietary restrictions I am hoping long term this will help to re-program and eventually heal my gut.

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I am really careful about keeping a log of all my medication and symptoms as this allows both the doctor and I to have a more accurate view on how things are going, what may be helping and in some instances what could be making things worse. You really begin to see patterns over time and get a much a clear insight into the flare-ups and also the better days too. I have a notebook which I have used to log every day of treatment since all this began. I recommend this for anyone juggling a difficult health problem and a lot of medication, especially if your brain has become a little more on the foggier side!

The trusty notebook... an insight into Lyme life!

The trusty notebook… an insight into Lyme life!

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2015 begins and the drama continues…

January has been a complete whirlwind; an unpredictable, rapid and destructive 4 weeks! It has been a challenge and not quite the positive start to a new year that I had hoped. For now, I have given up on the of idea of being able to predict how I will feel in the future, when these days I can’t be of sure how I will feel from the start to end of just one day! This is a complex illness, and needs to be un-ravelled bit by bit. I am always conscious of the bigger picture, but I am aware of the multi layer approach to healing for the long term benefits and chances of remission.

I began the new year with a totally un-invited bout of cold and flu symptoms which persevered for approximately two weeks. It is surprising how much this can knock you down when your body is already fighting so much. I had to halt taking my antibiotics as a die-off on top of this would have just been an overload for my immune system. It was mentally disappointing, as I know how the current infections will take any opportunity to thrive whilst I am not actively treating them with antibiotics. I followed Doctor orders and also kept in mind the words I often heard from my Mum growing up; “Feed a cold and starve a bug”! This was also particularly important as over the past 6 weeks I had began loosing weight again, regardless of consciously trying to increasing my calorie intake. Its hard to know exactly what is causing this, but it is something we are monitoring closely.
On top of this I have been trying to cure another mysterous rash which has covered my chest and back. Four different prescriptions creams later and more baffled GP’s the rash is still here!

Once the cold symptoms were clearing, I started a combination of new medications, Atovaquone (Mepron, Wellvone) and Azithromycin (Zithromax).

Mepron is an antiprotozoal medication that can penetrate the cyst form of Lyme and also treats Babesia. It is a thick, yellow suspension which visually reminds me of poster paint from school art lessons and it is ridiculously expensive. It costs a hefty £500-£600 per bottle, and with this price-tag it has been nicknamed ‘Liquid Gold! Mepron is known to be especially hard on the liver, so supporting this organ with supplements and constant detoxification is key. Not only does this prevent damage, but it also helps to clear my liver pathways, increasing my ability to handle the medication for a longer and more effective time period. This medicine is also absorbed better when taken with a fatty food, so a tub of organic almond butter and a spoon has been close to hand!

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Zithromax is prescribed for the treatment of acute bacterial infections. It is a broad-spectrum antibiotic, meaning it is active against a wide range of bacteria and thus being a good antibiotic to try as I have multiple tick-borne infections. A combination of Zithromax and Mepron is known as an effective Lyme and co-infeciton treatment protocol, and I am hoping I get some successful results from this.

The herx reaction from this combination has not been easy so far, but it is bearable. I bare in mind that when treating, there is a level of ‘No pain without gain’ to consider too. I ensure I get regular blood tests to measure liver and kidney functions and other important levels in my body. Unfortunately on this occasion Januarys test results went ‘missing’. I am non the wiser as to where or how this happened, but I will attend another blood draw in the hope that I can have some numbers on paper soon.

“They never said it was going to be easy, but I am hoping it is going to be totally worth it”.

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Almost Time!

So tomorrow is the beginning of my recovery journey. I will attend my first appointment at a specialist clinic called ‘Gordon Medical Associates’. I have spent the afternoon filling in the mammoth amount of medical forms and I am feeling mentally prepared for the information overload!

I currently have no idea how long I will be in the USA, it all depends if they think my body is strong enough at the minute to start the IV medication straight away. I am hoping it is, as I just want to get the treatment started so there is no chance of any permanent damage to my body. At the same time I feel nervous, as the bodies reaction to the antibiotics can be even worse than the pain I am already experiencing. This is called ‘herxing’. It is a reaction to endotoxins released by the bacteria as they are dying off within the body. All Lyme patients will herx differently, depending in the level of Lyme and types of co-infections the individual is suffering with.  With this in mind, this is why detoxing the body is so important. This will be done with a varied programme of additional supplements, epsom salt baths and massive dietary changes. This treatment programme will involve me doing all I can to help and heal my body, and no one says its going to be fun or easy!

Now to get some sleep before the big day. Night x

Gordon Medical Associates

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